Kenzy's World

Have you ever wondered what it was like to have your heart ripped straight out of your chest? I used to, I feel it now…and now I’m looking to feel like I did before…….absolutely fearless. I love the feeling that I had during my twenties, I miss it!

I sit here and look at a picture of my grandmother and she is astonishally beautiful. I remember my grandfather he was “difficult” but loved none-the-less. What it must have been like to be in her time, not that it was that long ago but things change very fast.

I remember her drawing pictures for me when I was little; she had more talent than I could ever hope for. It would take her literally minutes to draw a very accurate portrait of someone. She never expressed any dissatisfaction in her life, but she could have been more…….she was astonishing and I wish that I knew her better.

She died the day before my birthday a few years back, maybe that was supposed to be a sign for me maybe not…..in any case she was loved and is still greatly missed.


Have a good one!
Kenzy

I can’t seem to get any kind of creativity rolling through my head right now, you would think that the percocet would help…it doesn’t. I guess that I should explain the meds; it would seem that I have pleurisy, lucky me huh? Rather painful, thought for sure that I was having a heartattack or maybe I was hoping. Who knew that everything that’s happened over the last year and a half would be so stressful. Blah blah blah

Enough of that crap…

So I finally updated the links here, it was getting rather sad that some of them went nowhere at all, others went to places that they weren’t supposed to. I see that a few people have password protected their journals and blogs and failed to let me know, it would seem that I have fallen out fo favor with a few people. I used to worry about that stuff now I have other things to stress about.

On and on

This new town that we are living in is a trip, sometimes a trip to heaven other times a trip to hell. I can’t decide which it is just yet perhaps that’s why I can’t figure it out, I have never lived in a town that I couldn’t place within the first few months…different isn’t always good. I’m really not trying to rag on the new town; honestly I probably haven’t given it much of a chance.

Not much else to say especially since the rest of what I have to say is far beyond the limits of what I want to put out for the world to see right now, so I shall go and enjoy my drug induced haze. On the positive note I believe that my hiatus is over and I will be posted on a regular, because frankly I need an outlet right now.

Have a good one!
Kenzy

Well, I certainly never intended to take that long of a break, but things happen. I did try a few times to sit and write and it never “took” and I can’t even say that I have checked in much…so sad. Never-the-less, four jobs, two moves, and a year and several months later, here I am.

Looking back at what I just wrote wow I packed a lot of jobs into that small time frame, let me elaborate. I was laid off, took a temp job with a company that I worked for a few summers ago, then went to a temp agency which placed me at the last job. Of course I just moved south so am now job hunting again, fun stuff.

Well, I can’t say that this is a great start back but it’s the best I have right now.

Have a good one!
Kenzy

Okay so I still haven't been good about updates, it's not that I don't want to it just seems that everytime that I sit to type anything nothing comes into my mind... Maybe in a few days it will be better.

Take care,
Kenzy

You can probably guess that things aren’t quite going well from the title.

John or maybe it was the Monkey I was talking to, were joking a few weeks back about people in my life going through a “trial by fire”. Ha Granted at the time we were making light of it but I would guarantee that we were both gearing for the shock wave that follows a kenz-complete-melt-down. He’s seen this up close and personal, it’s not good. I feel it coming, it’s already started , there’s no stopping it. I have tried to clear a few people from the damage that will inevitably follow, not sure that it worked but I tried before the process had gone too far.

For those that know me know this is not the time to ask questions, make innocent friendly jabs, or really communicate with me much…it will go badly. Anyone who doesn’t know me, it’s best just to stay out of the way until the fire dies down.

I plan to start writing on a more regular basis because I need every outlet that I can get right now working for me, though it probably won’t be anything personal for awhile.

Have a good one
Kenzy